This morning, I was reading in Malachi 1 about the kind of sacrifice God wants from us. He does not want a blemished or “second hand” sacrifice. He does not want us to give him something “safe” in our minds, “safe” because we may need to withhold giving our best (we may need it later!). He wants our best sacrifice. He is the God of the Universe, the God over all, the Creator and Sustainer of all things–including our best and “safest” possession! He allowed and witnessed His own Child being beaten, bleeding, and then hung on a cross by nails for us. He sacrificed His most prized and safe Possession, all because He loves us and wants us close to Him. If we cannot trust the One who did all this because of love, then we cannot trust at all.

By asking for our most perfect and safe possession, He is asking us to trust Him–to trust that in exchange for our most perfect and safe possession, He will give something even better: His faithfulness; His provision; His perfect will; His everything. He is our Father. All He has, He wants to give us. Giving our best to Him, sacrificing it, i.e., giving it to be put to death and returned to us no more, will not only bring freedom from fear, but will fully display our trust in our God. Trusting that He does, and will always, give and provide for us something better–actually the best. Just hand it over, Landra. Full Trust = Complete Peace.

Malachi 1:13-14 “And you say, ‘What a burden!’ and you sniff at it contemptuously,” says the Lord Almighty. “When you bring injured, lame or diseased animals and offer them as sacrifices, should I accept them from your hands?” says the Lord.“Cursed is the cheat who has an acceptable male in his flock and vows to give it, but then sacrifices a blemished animal to the Lord. For I am a great king,” says the Lord Almighty, “and my name is to be feared among the nations.”

You Were There, Always

Here we are. You said you would take me, and You did. You said You were near, and you were.

Feeling the lump, You were there. During the biopsy, You were there. Waiting on the news, You were there. In shock, You were there. Cold wave rushing over my body, You were there. Finding a doctor, You were there. In every doctor’s office, You were there. During every scan, You were there. In the operating room, You were there. With every pain, You were there. With the first drip of chemo, You were there. With every shot, You were there. With every groan, cry, plea, doubt and fear, You were there. In my physical change, You were there. In the presence of my husband, You were there. In the presence of my children, You were there. In every hug, touch and word of concern, You were there. With the last drip of chemo, You were there. With each beam of radiation, You were there. With every pill, every surrender on a table, every prod, every exam, You were there. Every moment of weeping, every begging word, every moment of rejoicing, every moment of peace, You were there.

I always felt You; knew of Your presence. I saw your Righteous Right Hand upon me.

You are my God. You are my Savior. You are my Healer. You are my Comforter. You are my Everything. You love me, always. You are here, always. I praise you, always. I love you, always. It is over, and you are here…always.

“Forever, You and Me”

“Forever, You and Me”

Landra Kerekes


“Look, over here. I want you to see

A time with you. A time with Me.


I am here. I will not leave.

There is beauty ahead. I want you to see.


A time is coming, when you will feel pain.

but a new love you will see. A renewed love to gain.


It’s just through this valley. I’ll take you. You will see.

A newness is ahead, a newness of Me.


I will not leave you, as only I know the way.

But wait till you see it! It is like a new day.


I will show you hope. I will show you life.

You’ve heard them before, but they are most real through strife.


You will sense hope, but it is really Me.

You will know life. You will be free.


The chains will fall. The power will go.

You’ll know freedom. Take my hand; quick, I will show.


Yes, evil around. I see it too.

But they cannot harm, as I am with you.


Yes, I am in you. You feel me. You do.

I see no doubt, in your eyes, Me with you.


Isn’t it beautiful? I told you. I did.

You feel the hope, don’t you? In your life, I am hid.


Now, look back, to the valley. Do you see?

My presence made the path, full of beauty. It was Me.


You see where we walked? You see the path there?

I held you so close. I took all your cares.


Oh, I love you. I shower you with sweet words of love.

Heaven starts here, not just above.


I am forever, and my love for you is too.

I will never let you go. You know Me, and I fully know you.


Remember this time. The time I showed you My heart.

I am with you always. We are never apart.


Eternity starts now. Is is sure. Do you see?

It’s beauty is forever, with you forever. You and Me.


Praise Him.

I Give Up

Last Wednesday night, we discussed Psalms 103. It was poignant, as that was the Psalm on which I meditated while waiting for the results of my breast biopsy, close to 9 months ago. There is little over a week left in my radiation treatment, the last of all my cancer treatments. The physicians will have done all they know to do. This harsh “road” is almost over, and it seems He has brought me “full circle”.

I surrendered my body to the Lord, those 9 months ago, and I do it now, again. I cannot save myself. I cannot save my husband. I cannot save my children. It goes beyond me. “I give up” are the words I’ve said to myself, several times since Wednesday night. Through those words, He offers rest. In class, my friend said, “He’s the solution–the perfect solution to every problem.” This is true.

I cannot “forget all His benefits” (v.2). Oh, how my Lord has saved me, all through my life. I have seen His hand work mightily. He will not stop now. He’s “redeemed my life from the pit” (v.4) many times over–all through my life. He is quick to rescue, and won’t stop now. He “satisfies my desires with good things” (v.5), in countless ways, at countless times. He has showed me this satisfaction more times than I can number. He won’t stop now.

“He knows how we are formed” (v.14), so he knows how to heal, restore, renew. He’s done that all my life, and won’t stop now. His love is higher than the heavens, and has “removed my sins as far as the east is from the west” (v.11-12). Within all that distance is the great love of God for me. He will not stop loving me. He is the perfect solution to my life. I give up. My efforts are fruitless. His are perfect, beautiful, and Holy. His love for me is great–immeasurable, and it won’t stop now–not ever. I give up and look to Him, my Daddy, who loves me.

Psalm 103

Praise the Lord, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the Lord, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

The Lord works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.

He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
The Lord is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
15 The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting
the Lord’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
18 with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.

19 The Lord has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.

20 Praise the Lord, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
21 Praise the Lord, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the Lord, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.

Praise the Lord, my soul.

Living Among Death

For the past few days, it seems God has opened my eyes to true reality. I look at things and they don’t even seem real. It is as if He is showing me that this life is just shy of truth. He took me back to the Garden of Eden to show me how He wanted life on this Earth to be, then showed me that a different “level” of some sort occurred. When their eyes were “opened”, the death side of everything was seen and that is what we still see. All around us is death; we live in a world of death. An interesting statement. However, for those who believe in Jesus, we are rescued from that. It is as if we are a rescued creature living among a death world. We are enveloped in “life”–surrounded by the blood of Jesus as life, but living among a world of death and not the true, eternal reality.

Remaining separated from God continues a life lived among death. Living life covered by the blood of Jesus allows us true life in a world of death–a world that will, in truth, affect us no more because the life we now live is a “living” life. Jesus’ blood keeps us protected, and now we see life as it was always meant to be: pure, clean, eternal, and beautiful. We are now in communion with Almighty God for always, for eternity. Hallelujah! We live in life! Life!

Romans 12:2 “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.”

Ephesians 1:18 “ I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people,”

“He redeems everything, of course.” These simple and strong words were stated by my sister-in-law, just a few weeks back. Then she looked at me, as if I knew that wholeheartedly. I did, on the surface. I needed to digest that, and God knew it. Those words have been in my mind since that evening, and He’s been teaching…and calming. I knew He redeemed, but neglected the true understanding, and that He redeems ALL–of course. Of course. He is THE Redeemer.

I had to be reminded of what redeemed means: “To free from captivity by paying the ransom. To free from sin and its consequences.” That same weekend, my sister-in-law gave me tulip bulbs as a gift of hope–to remind me of the “Spring” that is coming, now that this “Winter” is passing. This morning, that same thought came to mind: Life to death, then life again. This cancer, this sin in my body, was fully alive and taking over my cells. It was brought to death, and I had to travel with it…for a time. Now, although treatment continues, my body is starting to renew. My “dry bones” are gaining life. I am receiving a NEW body.

Jesus, the one who died, came back to life. The Perfect One died. He is eternal, and eternally takes to death our sins, and the sins of our bodies. He gives NEW life. He gives NEW health. Because He is eternal, He redeems even today. His redemption is ongoing. He makes all things new. He is the ONE who redeems. Hallelujah. I am free from ALL sin. I am redeemed.

Hosea 13:14 ““I will deliver this people from the power of the grave; I will redeem them from death. Where, O death, are your plagues?     Where, O grave, is your destruction?”

Job 33:28 “God has delivered me from going down to the pit, and I shall live to enjoy the light of life.”

Isaiah 53:4-5 “Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.”

A Whispered Love Message

I am Lord of all. I know all and I use all for My glory. I am eternally good. I am eternally just. Even sin, separation from Me, will be renewed–will be used for my Kingdom. I am all powerful. I am Sovereign. I am the God of all gods. I am the Lord of all lords. I am the King of all kings. Only I am the Mighty One.

I want to give you all I have. I want to lavish my love upon you. You are my child. I want to shower you with blessings, gifts, all I have is yours. You are seeing Me. You are holding to me. I have all you need. Tell those you know, tell of my love. You are my sweet daughter, and I hold you tenderly, with joy in My heart.

You see Me as I hold you and you are at peace. That is where I want you–in my arms looking to me in your peace. I am always in your presence, as you are always in mine–never far from me. You turn to look, and I am here. You are my sweet child and I love you always. I am right here.